This is the point where no overlapping can continue. The choice has to be clear and each one takes me in different directions.
At this intersection of my life, I am exploring lots of things.
Parts of me that love writing out her thoughts and enjoying keeping things private.
I am sure of entrepreneurship and I am doing well at work.
I want more children but I've gotten comfortable with just one.
I know a career change is definite but I have so much training in one particular are of work.
Like...
What do I do?
These intersections are moving closer, wrapping more tightly, squeezing me to make decisions I am fearful of.
Asking myself, "What do you want right now?" always returns the response of
"Just to breathe".
And while I'm breathing I feel the clock ticking. Time is moving on.
While I sit in indecision I feel pulled in the direction that my logical, practical mind says is not safe.
Its unknown.
Truth is, there is a lot of fear at these intersections. And with fear riding in front, it gets really hard to see clearly.
So I roll down the window to get some air and.... breathe.
Yes I breathe.
I make small decisions for each intersection.
I write about the things I wish someone had talked to me about, to release it from my mind.
I become more of an investor in businesses; buying stocks, shares, bonds, while seeking opportunities to build something.
I prepare to expand into a new home while investing for it and embracing my family more. Spending time with them and allowing myself to pay closer attention to the kid I am raising in the now.
I try some new things, writing blogs, writing books. Even started and closed a company. I pursued making soap and hair products.
I still attend meetings and seminars in my field of practice to continue my effectiveness at work.
I'm just trying to keep it simple, even as I stretch myself for answers, lest fear hijack me again.
I push each part of the intersection because in time the path to take becomes clearer.
I just need to get better and better.
And... I also just need to breathe.